nepal

I received a phone call from Alex in Nepal today. He settled in a small village in the region of Khadoa and has already started to arrange our consulting office right in the village. I couldn't find Khadoa on a map, but then not every village and hidden valley are on maps. Alex will pick me up at the airport and take me directly to the village from there. I bought a guide of Nepal and started to learn my first words in Nepali. That’s going to be a new interesting adventure together and I’m happy to discover such a magnificent country. I’m already amazed by the Himalayas mountains. Alex explained that the mountains are sacred to the people here for being a kind of protector and I hope they’ll do the same to us.

katmandu

I can’t believe it and I’m afraid of writing it! He’s going with me!!! Can you believe that? Alex will be leaving for Katmandu a week before me to check about our future needs in Nepal and prepare our settlement there. I’ll join him quickly after that. He didn’t give me any explanation when he came back this morning except that he loves me and he trusts me and wants to go. Well, that’s the only explanation I needed. He talked to Matthew too but he refuses to tell me more about that. Never mind…never mind! He still loves me and comes with me, that’s the only thing which matters to me.

it's over

It’s over. Alex and I had a huge fight yesterday. I told him about my plan to move to Nepal and I told him everything I thought about him, the disappointment, my mistrust for Matthew and their so-called laboratory. I pleaded him to leave it all behind, I told him that he was no longer a physician and had become a kind of money maker. I only wanted him to react, wake up. And he did, only not in the manner I was wishing for. He left the house without a word. I fear our love is over.

trouble

Alex and Matthew are in trouble. The miracle product set up a big debate. Alex refuses to talk to me about that. I don’t know anymore what I can do to help him or to save our couple. All this seems so different from the life we dreamed of, the life we wanted to share and the projects we dreamed of together.

Nepal

Last week I read an article in a monthly medical paper about Nepal. There are so many things to be done over there. I decided to keep it for later to think about it. I feel such a strong need inside to be of help of those in need. Joaquim is doing very well in the reservation. What if I decided to leave for Nepal : I have saved some money, I probably could go, but what about Alex, could I do it leaving him here? Well, I don’t remember the last time we had a real talk together. I’m going to look for more information about Nepal. I could go… Yes, I could , I would. At least, I would feel useful there.

a new product

Alex and Matthew are getting more nervous and impatient. They developped a new product which could be revolutionary for the American cosmetics market. Sometimes I just don’t understand Alex at all. Is it for this product he spent so many sleepless nights working at in French Guyana? Where is my Alex, the one who was so much involved in treating and taking care of people? They’re preparing their marketing approval file before they launch it. I hardly recognize Alex. He tells me that this product would be a great step ahead for medicine but I can't help hearing Matthew's view too when he tells him that they’re going to be rich! I must talk to Alex but I'm waiting for the right moment which seems never to come: I just don’t know if he could even hear me these days.

life has moved on

For a while, I just couldn’t write anymore when we came back. It’s been two months since we landed back in Santa Fe and life has moved on, as it always does. I received new s form Pierre and François. They are to leave in a few weeks for another mission in Ecuador. They promised to stop and visit us in Santa Fe on their way back home. Alex went back to work at ThamResearch and Matthew couldn't hide his contentment to see him at work here again - as well as raving about the discoveries he brought back from Guyana. As for me, I went back working on the Navajo and Hopi reservations. Today is Independence Day. Everyone is celebrating but I cant' help feeling a touch of sadness deep in my heart, why?